Billie Holiday 
by Charles Edward Smith 
 

THERE WAS nothing about living on 
   the sidewalks that I didn't know," Billie Holi
   day told a writer for Tan [February, 19531. 
   "I knew how the gin joints looked on the in
   side; I had been singing in after-hours joints 
   -damp, smoky cellars, in the backs of bar
   rooms. 
   "It was slow, this attempt to climb clear 
   of the barrel. But as I grew older, I found 
   those trying to keep me in it were not always 
   the corner hoodlum, the streetwalker, the la
   borer, the numbers runner, the rooming
   house ladies and landlords, the people who 
   existed off the $25- and $30-a-week salaries 
   they were paying in those days. 
   "They, I found, were the ones who wanted 
   to see me 'go,' to get somewhere. It was their 
   applause and help that kept me inspired. 
   These 'little people,' condemned as I have 
   been ever since I can remember, gave me my 
   chance long before the mink-coated lorgnette 
   crowd of Fifth Avenue and Greenwich Vil
   lage ever heard of me." 
   Which could be said of most outstanding 
   hot musicians. No one begins at the top; few 
   even reach it. And if Lady was condemned 
   now and again-and she has been, plenty
   it was by essentially smaller minds and small
   er people than the "little people" she knew in 
   Harlem during the Prohibition era. But her 
   talent has never been without recognition. In
   deed, it was in the small spots of Harlem that 
   people like John Hammond, Paul Muni, Mil
   dred Bailey and others heard her, encouraged 
   her and got others to listen to her voice. 
   She is an altogether remarkable singer and, 
   like her great predecessor, Bessie Smith, de
   serves the best. In backgrounds, the two have 
   little in common. Bessie, when she was a kid, 
   sang in a choir in Memphis and left home to 
   become a protege of Gertrude "Ma" Rainey 
   in Negro minstrels, in the South, the only 
   place where the blues were "big" until Bes
   sie, Louis and others rescued them from an 
   unfair charge of country contamination. Billie 
   ran errands for a madam in East Baltimore, 
   so that she could listen to records on the par
   lor phonograph by Bessie and Louis. But 
   when she began singing in second-string Har
   lem hot spots, the material most in demand 
   consisted of pop songs and show tunes, espe
   cially Negro show tunes, for few Negroes in 
   those days could afford the charges in the 
   swanky night clubs (such as the Cotton 
   Club, where oftentimes there were more 
   whites than colored at the pink-lit tables) . 
   In joints such as those Billie worked in, 
   there were any number of kids doing miser
   able imitations of Ethel Waters. She was dif
   ferent. Not that her style was perfect, but it 
   was shaping up, and already the direction was 
   clear. For, whatever she sang, she had a voice 
   born of blues. And if she sang in the cellars, 
   as she says, she probably sang more blues 
   there-her rather sophisticated vocal style 
   still shows the infuence of lowdown and 
   "dirty" blues intonation-than she ever did
    in the lesser night clubs of the Harlem cir
   cuit. There was a speakeasy around the cor
   ner from Jerry's Log Cabin, for example, 
   where, at the very time Billie sang at the Log 
   Cabin, at this basement bistro (which hardly 
   deserved the name; there was a dirt foor and 
   old boxes for chairs) one could hear harshly 
   sung, moaning blues and "primitive" poly
   phonal and antiphonal spirituals that, years 
   later, were to give root-nourishment to rock 
   and roll. And this, too, was part of the Har
   lem scene, but one the visiting public seldom 
   got to know-"down home" blues and spir
   ituals close to the feld holler and the chant, 
   gone underground in the urban North. But 
   Billie knew it and, mixed up in her singing, 
   as she went to work on the latest romantic 
   ballad, were the beat and burning fre of 
   the blues. 
   Essentially, hers has been a jazz, an instru
   mental style of singing for as long as critics 
   have known it. She may have got it mostly 
   from Louis, from his records and from hear
   ing him at theatres, but style comes in bits 
   and pieces so infnitesimal that not even a 
   singer can be aware of every last influence. 
   What is signifcant is that she has been, and 
   is, an artist in reshaping songs and ballads, 
   and in this, of course, Louis was the frst 
   great master. 
   Billie Holiday (Eleanora Fagan) was 
   born in Baltimore, April 7, 1 
   age parents who married three years later. 
   When she says she was a woman at six, she 
   may have been thinking of other things than 
   physical development. Her father, Clarence 
   Holiday, was a musician (McKinney's Cotton 
   Pickers, guitar; he'd formerly played trum
   pet), almost always on the road. He and 
   Billie's mother had separated when Billie was 
   little more than a baby, so that she was, in 
   effect, a fatherless child (as were so many 
   during slavery days): the little mother called 
   "Mom" was the rock she clung to. And even 
   
   her mother left her with relatives, to go up 
   North in search of work. It wasn't merely that 
   Billie had traumatic experiences-life daps 
   all of us around-but it slapped her viciousl 
   y, 
   when she was very young and didn't know 
   what it was all about. 
   Albeit she lacked Job's eloquence, her reci. 
   tal of grievances reminds one of him as he 
   inculpated the powers of darkness with a kind 
   of sulky solemnity. Job, in his way, was salty, 
   and so was Billie, and in each case there 
   seems an obvious merit. For instance, Billie 
   was accused by her arch-tormentor, a cousin 
   named Ida, of having indirectly caused the 
   de-L'h of her great-grandmother, one of the 
   few people who gave her love and to whom 
   she gave love in return. Her great-grandmoth. 
   er had been a plantation slave 
   (and Billie is 
   descended from the owner), who used to en. 
   tertain her with stories of the old days. She 
   couldn't read or wrte but knew the Bible in
   timately. When her great-grandmother-who 
   was not supposed to lie down (but rest in a 
   chair) because of illness-asked Billie to let 
   her lie down, she only thought to ease the old 
   woman's pain. She spread a blanket on the 
   foor and, being tired, lay down herself. She 
   woke up hours later, with her great-grand. 
   mother's arm around her neck, and the arm 
   was growing stif and cold with death. She 
   was scared and panicky and couldn't free her
   self and began to scream. After that she 
   was in a hospital for a month, recovering 
   from shock. 
   At the age of 1 
   man who lived in the neighborhood. The man was 
   sent to prison, and Billie was    sent to a 
   Catholic home where, as a punishment for 
   infringement of rules, a refractory girl had to 
   wear a raggedy red dress; once, Billie claims, 
   she was locked in a room where    a girl (who'd 
   met with an accident) was lying out dead. In 
   between such harrowing experiences, she 
   lived the "normal" life of a slum kid, snitching  
   stuff from the dime    store and sneaking into 
 
 

   .0vies• When her father nicknamed her 
   '.Bill" because of her tomboy ways, she 
   chlinSed it to Billie, after Billie Dove, her 
   idol of the silent films. 
   As she describes her early years in her au
   to biography, she sounds like a tough little kid, 
   running scared, and makes one realize how 
   Meaningless terms like "juvenile delinquent" 
   can be when applied to specific persons. She 
   didn't run in gangs. She was a lone wolf and 
   a lonely little girl who, when barely old 
   enough to be out on the streets, learned to spit 
   and scratch and howl. Years later, at the 
   Grand Terrace in Chicago, she threw a lethal 
   threat and an inkwell at the manager, explod
   ing in blind hostility just as she had as a small 
   child when a boy teased her with a dead rat. 
   On that occasion she had whacked the boy 
   over the head with a stick. On another, 
   in a 52nd Street club, she dunked a maid 
   (who'd called her a dirty name) in a toilet 
   bowl, and a jurist, measuring the provocation, 
   refused to press charges. Now that she 
   is famous, such incidents are categorized as 
   temperament. Yet all of these acts, and more, 
   were less than adult and other than childish, 
   for the child's act was defensive and, in its 
   context, more than reasonable. 
   Billie came to New York when she was 
   1 1928, the year Louis recorded one 
   of her favorite numbers, "West End Blues." 
   She decided to get off at Pennsylvania Station 
   and visit Harlem before going on to meet her 
   mother at Long Branch. Instead of which she 
   got lost. A social worker for the Society for 
   the Prevention of Cruelty to Children took 
   her in hand and set her up in a beautiful hotel 
   where she had a room and a bed to herself. 
   This was living it up. Years later she looked 
   up the place, out of curiosity, and to her 
   amazement it turned out to be the YWCA. 
   In her autobiography, Billie tells of her ex
   periences, in and out of jail, as a teen-age 
   prostitute, and describes, at frst hand, the 
   seamy sides of seamy streets during the late 
   1920's, when corruption and gangsterism 
   were rampant in many parts of the city, but 
   nowhere more so than in Harlem, where 
   white gangsters were in control of the more 
   plush night clubs and street-corner loafers 
   could steer you to after-hours joints, pros
   titutes or marijuana pads-whatever your 
   wayward heart desired. Billie took to smok
   ing reefers 
   (marijuana) when still in her 
   teens. This was not unusual elsewhere-a 
   "Kinsey report" on the subject would shock 
   and surprise only the very sheltered. 
   Billie didn't expect to be a call girl even 
   temporarily, but apparently looked upon the 
   world of pimps and prostitutes as a way to 
   make a fast buck. Since she was allowed to 
   visit a house of prostitution and run errands 
   for a madam before she was 13, it is logical 
   to suppose that she thought of the girls in the 
   house as making a living (which, in fact, they 
   did), without moral theorizing. To a slum kid 
   the more affluent prostitutes may have 
   seemed like fashion plates. Billie was sent into 
   transports of happiness when "Mom" got a 
   foppy, big, red velvet hat, such as Billie had 
   seen on good-time glamour girls, decorated 
   with birds of paradise feathers. But she only 
   ran errands and, anyway, wasn't paid in mon
   ey. She was paid in being allowed to listen to 
   records by Bessie and Louis on the parlor 
   phonograph. 
   So the two roads beckoned in a good-time 
   parlor on the corner, and she knew she would 
   take the one that meant singing, even as she 
   walked the streets in Harlem in a silk dress 
   and spike heels. "I know this for damn sure," 
   she says in her book. "if I'd heard Pops and 
   Bessie wailing through the window of some 
   minister's front parlor, I'd have been running 
   errands for him." 
   In low-class joints, where she worked for a 
   while when young, she refused to pick up bills 
   from tables without using her hands. She 
   wanted to be a singer without tricks, sexual 
   or otherwise. This was consistent. In the sort 
   was of hustling she had experienced 
   then nothing at all glamorous-one wonders 
   there ever is, except in books-and the whole 
   pattern of life, from stealing white socks in 
   the dime store to accepting a blue mink coat 
   from her man. paid for out of her own earn
   ings as a singer, found her trying to live up 
   to the Lady, perhaps with an eye    on the one for 
   whom a day of the year, Lady Day, is listed 
   in the Calendar of Saints. 
   In an interview with Dave Dexter. Jr., she 
   tells of the Depression period when her mother 
   couldn't find work as a housemaid    and 
   when she herself tried scrubbing foors and 
   145th just couldn't make it. "We lived on 
   Street near Seventh Avenue," she explained. 
   "One day we were so hungry we could barely 
   breathe. I started out the door. It was cold 
   as all hell, and I walked from 145th to 133rd 
   down Seventh Avenue, going in every joint 
   trying to fnd work. Finally. I got so desper
   ate I stopped in at the Log Cabin, run by 
   Jerry Preston. I told him I wanted a drink. I 
   didn't have a dime. But I ordered gin (it was 
   my frst drink-I didn't know gin from wine) 
   and gulped it down. 
   "I asked Preston for a job . told him I 
   was a dancer. He said to dance. I tried it. He 
   said I stunk. I told him I could sing. He said: 
   sing. Over in the corner was an old guy play
   ing piano. He struck 'Travelin' All Alone' 
   and I sang... . The customers stopped drink
   ing. They turned around and watched. The 
   pianist. Dick Wilson. swung into 'Body and 
   Soul.' Jeez, you should have seen those peo
   ple-all of them started crying. Preston came 
   over, shook his head and said, 'Kid, you win.' 
   That's how I got my start." (Down Beat, No
   "ember 1. 1 
   The influx from downtown wasn't long in 
   starting. Tipped of by Hammond. Benny 
   Goodman and other musicians dropped in, 
   and Benny used Billie on a record date for 
   Columbia. This was before he'd organized 
   his regular hand. Teagarden, Krupa    and Joe Sul
   livan were among those on the date that made 
   "Your Mother's Son-in-Law," in Novembe 
   1933, and, the following month made"Rif. 
   fin' the Scotch." Wrote Dave Dexter of the 
   first Holiday record. The disk is an 
   item today, not only because of the fne in. 
   strumental work, but because it was 
   Holiday's first side. She was pretty lousy. You 
   tell her so and she grins. 'But I was only 15 
   then, she says, and scared.' 
   (Ill buy the "scared.. but not the age; she 
   had to be 18 or born 
   in wedlock; she can't have it both ways,) 
   She continued to sing in Harlem night spots 
   and at theatres, but outside the    professional 
   world of music and entertainment she was 
   surprisingly little known. 
   Like most other hot musicians who have 
   since become famous, Billie got very little for 
   her work. Bernie Hanighen fought for her, to 
   get her more money and wider recognition. 
   "A lot of guys were big tippers uptown," she 
   says in the autobiography, "but when it came 
   to fghting for you downtown, they were no. 
   where. Not Bernie. He was the cause of me 
   making my first records under my own name 
   -not as anybody's damn vocalist, but as 
   Billie Holiday, period-and then the list of 
   musicians backing me. Bernie Hanighen is a 
   great guy." 
   When she opened at the Apollo, she sang 
   one of his tunes. She had a bad case of stage 
   fright, but by the second tune the house was 
   with her and she was all right. There was an 
   interesting crowd there, as there often was 
   where she sang. They not only knew current 
   song hits but knew the composers of them, 
   and if they liked the composer, that was it; 
   he was in: he was applauded just as loudly 
   as if he'd been there in person. "There's 
   nothing like an audience at the Apollo," says 
   Billie. "They didn't ask me what my style was, 
   who I was, where I'd come    from, who influ
   enced me, or anything. They just broke the 
   house up." 
   Billie said that she'd always wanted Bessie's 
   big sound and Pop's feeling. What she 
   got, as her style developed, was altogether 
   her own sound, big, brash, subtle. soft-scnsi 
   tive. a sour-sweet sound, the shape of which 
   she n»n'P"l''tes so that it comes out flat, 
   round, harsh, pian ssitno--one of the most 
   beautiful vocal sounds in jazz, once you get 
   to know it-and, out of a raw, emotional 
   maelstrom, conic feelings which are disci
   plined in song. 
   She met Lester Young at a jam session. "1 
   used to love to have him conic around and 
   blow pretty solos behind me. She once said 
   that she was first called "Lady" because she 
   Wouldn't take customers' money off tables, an 
   (frankly obscene) gin-mill 
   old-cstahlislied 
   custom. Then Billie. who can use a rough, 
   tough, nasty vocabulary when she wants to, 
   blew a gasket at the loose and dirty talk of 
   some Basic-ites. Whereupon Lester took the 
   ,Day" out of Holiday and that made it
   Lady pay. She called him "Prez" for "Presi
   dent". "Mons" was "Duchess", to complete 
   the list, her boxer was "Mister." 
   "If you fnd a tune and it's got something 
   (autobiography], 
   to do with you, she says 
   ,.yo u don't have to evolve anything. You feel 
   it, and when you sing it other people can feel 
   something, too. With me. it's got nothing to 
   do with working or arranging or rehearsing. 
   Give me a song I can feel, and it's never work. 
   There are a few songs I feel so much I can't 
   stand to sing them. but that's something else 
   again." 
   From this statement, it is clear that the 
   lyric is part of the material she has to work 
   with, yet in treatment of it. melodically and 
   rhythmically, she confutes semantics. "I don't 
   think I'm singing," she says [/-fear Nlc' Talkin' 
   to Ya]. "I feel like I ant playing a horn. I try 
   to improvise like Les Young, like Louis Arm
   strong, or anyone else I admire. What comes 
   out is what I feel. I hate straight singing. I 
   have to change a tune to my own way of do
   ing it. That's all I know." 
   Billie's chapters on road tours with Basic 
   ( 
   937) and Shaw (1938) , playing dates that 
   took them overnight from riff-raft joints to 
   class hotels, are as frank and revealing as 
   those on the seamy side of Harlem. when she 
   was trying to make a fast buck the fast way. 
   There also emerge from these pages her re
   spect and love for musicians (some of them; 
   for others she had no damn love at all, so to 
   speak) and her growing maturity as a musi
   cian among musicians (though she didn't read 
   music). For example, she says, "With Basic 
   we had something no expensive arrangements 
   could touch. The cats would come in, some
   body would hung a tune. Then someone would play it 
   over on the piano once or    twice. Then someone 
   would set up a riff, a ba-deep, a ba
   dop. Then Daddy Basic would two-finger it a little." 
   Already, with groups led by Teddy Wilson 
   and others. Billie had proved herself on blues, 
   ballads and pop songs that, in her interpreta
   tion, could be as poignant or portentous as 
   crimes passionels. In handling tone and 
   rhythm she was infnitely subtle, as is essen
   tial in a capable blues singer; usually she 
   dragged the beat, but she fooled around it 
   (as Louie does) and sometimes gave it a 
   nudge. The timbre of her voice changed to 
   suit the mood of the song, and her beautiful, 
   strong vibrato could also be as delicate as an 
   angel dancing on the head of a pin. Many of 
   her metamorphoses of pops and ballads
   some of the best vocals in jazz-are out of 
   print, including the frst version of "Summer
   time," that she did in 1 
   gan and a small band. 
   By 1939. according to her (Dexter inter
   view) (There were 
   . she had loved three men. 
   others, subsequently. but only much later 
   did she seem to radiate any real sense of con
   tentment.) "One was Marion Scott, when I 
   was a kid. He works for the post offce now. [Another] 
   was Freddie Green, Basic's    guitar 
   man. But Freddie's first wife is dead and 
   has two children, and somehow it didn't work 
   out. The third was Sonny Wlm our 
   but like me. he lives with his 
   plans for marriage didn't jell. That's all." 
   Even her book lacks what one could call any 
   moving romantic interest, though it 
   is non all lacking in revelations of tenderness 
   feeling. (Frank and revealing as it is, it some
   times leaves one with an odd sense of incom
   pleteness. as if it did not always "dig" 
   real Billie, who is perhaps best felt in the sin
   When the band went into the Blue Room 
   of the Lincoln (New York City). the treat. ment 
   accorded Billie griped the whole    band. 
   Yet there seemed no way to cope with it, qs 
   13illie explained later, Artie and the men 
   had 
   taken months of Bell-on-the-road for this New 
   York engagement and a radio wire.    This was 
   the big one. So Lady came in the back door 
   and didn't sit on the bandstand-as girl vo. 
   calists almost invariably did in the great days 
   of swoon and swing-but went upstairs to a 
   little room until she was called to sing her 
   
   uous line of a song. I was reminded, perhaps 
   irrelevantly. of Freud's concept of dreams: 
   that there is a manifest content that ap
   pears to he the reality of the dream, and a 
   latent content that is real, and that is the 
   dream.) 
   The human reality of segregation 
   dogged the Lady cast, west, north, south. 
   Unless your skin is the appropriate color, you 
   may not be aware of the humiliation that one 
   out of ten of our citizens experiences, every 
   day. as regular as clockwork, but with more 
   wheels within wheels. At a Detroit theatre 
   she was asked to apply dark grease paint, 
   so that she wouldn't be mistaken for off-white. 
   Then, when she played a Detroit theatre 
   with the Artie Shaw orchestra there was 
   some apprehension about her appearing on 
   stage (with a white band) because of her dark 
   complexion. Billie, in her memoirs, called it 
   "dynamic-assed Detroit." 
   Once, at a joint where some members of 
   the Artie Shaw orchestra were having a 
   snack, everybody got waited on but Lady. 
   Chuck Peterson (trumpet) called the waitress 
   over and Tony Pastor (saxophone) bawled 
   her out. "This is Lady Day," he said; "now 
   you feed her." At some stops on the road, 
   such as roadside diners, there weren't even 
   outdoor toilets for colored. Said Billie I auto
   biography], "At frst I used to be so ashamed. 
   Then fnally I just said to hell with it." 
   
   number. She was, she said, given fewer and 
   fewer spots on the air time. It got to her, it 
   got to her more than it ever had in the South, 
   where it was all a part of somebody else's gra
   cious way of living, and she blew up a storm 
   and quit. 
   When Billie opened at Cafe Society Down
   town (New York City) in the late 1930's 
   -her favorite fowers, white gardenias, in 
   her hair-it was seven years and thousands 
   of gut-torn, satin-sheathed songs from the 
   Log Cabin. Cafe' Society was flled to capacity 
   with the sort of cosmopolitan audience for 
   which it became famous-celebrities, artists, 
   society people, and just people. And top. 
   drawer jazz. Said Billie ( autobiography ]: 
   "Meade Lux Lewis knocked them out; Am
   mons and Johnson fipped them; Joe Turner 
   killed them: (Frankie) Newton's band sent 
   them: and then I came on. This was an audi. 
   ence." 
   When she sings from the guts-and that 
   was the only way to sing her big tune there, 
   "Strange Fruit" (Lewis Allen wrote it with her in
    mind, and she's    the only one to sing it) -
   she reminds one of Bessie on a deeply felt 
   blues. There is no hip-twisting or flirting with 
   the microphone. but there appears    to be an 
   almost imperceptible tremor. Like Bessie, she 
   sings with her whole body. 
   Once, at a Miami night club, a customer 
   asked for "Strange Fruit" and "Gloomy Sun
   day!" She couldn't fgure out why he asked 
 
 


for either but she fnally sang "Strange Fruit" 
   as an encore. When I came to the fnal was in the 
   prase of the lyrics," she said, "1 
   and strongest voice I had been in for 
   months. My piano player was in the same 
   kind of form. When I said '. . . for the sun to 
   . for 
   toe. ' and then the piano punctuation, '. . 
   the wind to suck,' I pounced on those words 
   like they had never been hit before." [ auto
   biography.] 
   The commodore record of this song is one 
   of the great vocals of jazz, described with 
   penetrating accuracy by Glenn Coulter as 
   "that uncanny expression of horror which 
   transcends its willful lyric when Billie sings it, 
   and becomes a frozen lament, a paralysis of 
   feeling truer to psychology than any conven
   [Cambridge 
   tional emotionalism could be." 
   Review, December, 1956.1 
   The 1940'x, for Billie, began near the top 
   and ended as near the bottom as one could 
   get with any hope of climbing up again. She 
   made trips to the Coast, where moving picture 
   stars became her friends and where she met 
   Norman Granz ("Jazz at the Philharmonic" 
   concerts and recordings) who, in the 1950's, 
   helped her to get back on her two feet and 
   stand up straight professionally. She sang and 
   acted in the flm New Orleans, with Louis 
   Armstrong. (She was given the usual, ig
   nominious role of a maid. but at least she got 
   to sing.) By the time the film had its premiere 
   in New York, she was in trouble with the law 
   because of using heroin. 
   Before the timbers shoring up the roof 
   (that was to fall on her) began to creak, 
   Billie recorded songs that are among her most 
   moving performances. Among these was 
   "God Bless the Child," worked out with Ar
   thur Herzog after she had had a quarrel with 
   her mother. She said [ autobiography], "This 
   will gas the Duchess, I thought. And it did." 
   In fact, it gassed a lot of people, sardonic 
   lyrics twisting and squirming under the scal
   pel of Billie's membranous reed. 
   "In a reversal of the usual story," wrote 
   Glenn Coulter, "Billie's popularity in
   creased during the same time that her style 
   became more complex. This was also the 
   period when her life seemed tangled and diffi
   cult . if drama intensifes, it may do so by 
   means of irony. To this weapon Billie now 
   turned, and as she sang a love song, it became 
   a cry of hatred and contempt. . ." Of her 
   uneven output at this time he remarks. Most 
   of these bad performances take place in an 
   over-arranged, bc-violined setting, and the 
   gait never seems to be an honest jazz tempo, 
   or indeed any tempo that allows music to 
   breathe naturally." Mr. Coulter noted what 
   appeared to be an attempt to convert Billie 
   "into a super-personality cranking out mil
   lion-copy best sellers. . It is a shock to re
   call that Billie saw no incongruity in this at
   tempt; we even learn with dismay that the 
   throbbing violins are there at her express 
   wish; it is only the demon that kept her 
   against her will from abandoning her art for 
   the big money." 
   Lady's demon had many faces. One was 
   27, 
   the big H, heroin. On Tuesday, May 
   1947, she appeared in United States District 
   Court, Ninth and Market, Philadelphia, and 
   174, 
   was arraigned for violation of Section 
   Title 21, U.S.C.A. (violation of Narcotics 
   Act). In the course of his remarks, the district 
   attorney said: "She has given these agents 
   a full and complete statement and came in 
   here last week with the booking agent 
   (Glaser) and expressed a desire to be cured 
   of this addiction. Very unfortunately she has 
   had following her the worst type of para
   sites you can think of. We have learned 
   that in the past three years she has earned 
   almost a quarter of a million dollars, but last 
   or $57,000, and she 
   year it was $56,000 
   doesn't have any of that money." 
   Billie volunteered to take a government-supervised 
   cure-she had previously tried    to 
   "kick" it of with a private hospital cure, but 
    it hadn't worked-and was committed to the
   
   segregated Federal rehabilitation establish
   ment for women at Alderson, West Virginia. 
   for a year and a day. After a brief but rough 
   "cold turkey" treatment, she was fitted into 
   the routine, starting out as a "Cinderella," 
   washing dishes and peeling potatoes; then for 
   it spell she was assigned to work with the 
   pigs on the farm. Nevertheless, and despite 
   Jim Crow, she found it a better environment 
   than the city prison had been and remarked at 
   one point, "There were any number of heart
   1 949.] 
   warming experiences." [Ebony. July. 
   1 
   Billie gave a concert at Carnegie Hall 
   days after leaving Alderson. She played to a 
   packed house, and hundreds were    turned 
   away. Coming north from West Virginia, she 
   got off at Newark and went direct to Morristown 
   to stay with Bobby Tucker's    family. 
   Bobby was her accompanist, and the first song 
   they rehearsed was "Night and Day," which 
   she described as "the toughest song in the 
   world for me to sing. I'll never forget that 
   frst note, or the second. Or especially the 
   third one, when I tried to hit 'day' and hold 
   it. I hit it and held it and it sounded better 
   than ever. Bobby almost fell off the stand, he 
   was so happy... We did all our rehearsing there. 
   We never went near New York,    or Carnegie Hall. 
   Bobby and his mother made me 
   feel I was home and everything was cool." 
   The user of narcotics is the eternal fall guy. 
   Pushers, themselves pushed by the tycoons of 
   the multi-million-dollar dope racket, harass 
   them with all the slimy persistence of blood
   suckers and blackmailers. Narcotics agents 
   keep tabs on users and, it would seem, on 
   those who have "kicked" the habit, in the 
   hope of getting a line on the higher-ups. In 
   New York, Billie was refused a performer's 
   license for work in cabarets-but this was 
   standard procedure; she was in no sense sin
   gled out. "Billie is not self-pitying," Nat Hcntof 
   commented in reviewing    her book for 
   Down Beat (August 8, 1956], "but she does 
   
   make sever al valid complaints, including a 
   plea that America adopt the British system of 
   treating addicts as 'sick people' under medica l 
   care. 
   In the interests of rehabilitation, at various 
   times. Billie had a talk with a priest, 
   spent 
   loads of money on new clothes, bought a sleek 
   Cadillac the color of chlorophyll-ii,tppy? 
   green 
   peas, and a plot of land in New Jersey. Later 
   (she doesn't give an exact date).    she went to 
   a psychiatrist, and was proud to have fought down 
   an urge to die and gotten    back the love 
   of life and the will to live that goes with it. 
   As often happens with people who've been on dope, 
   some previous friends and    acquaintances were wary 
   of associating with her. In 
   the vernacular, she was hot. Others, such as 
   Bobby Tucker and John Simmons, acted as 
   though she had merely been away for a while, which
    was the truth. John took    her down to 
   the Strand to hear Lena Horne. Lena had 
   been told that Billie was out front and came 
   down from the stage and up the darkened 
   aisle to take Lady in her arms. As Billie said, 
   people like Lena took the sting out of the 
   others. 
   The storm that blew her house of cards 
   apart in 1 947 
   had a vicious backlash that 
   caught her while on the West Coast two years later. 
  A news item in Down Beat,    datelined 
   San Francisco, July, 1 949, reads: 
   Broke and alone after her manager, John 
   I cvy. left her to face the trial here, at which 
   %he was acquitted, Billie Holiday decided to 
   go hack to work. But despite the fact that 
   the jury said they believed Billie had been 
   framed by Levy. she said, "If he was to walk 
   into the room this minute. I'd melt. He's my 
   man and I love him." 
   The trial appeared to confrm that a package 
   of opium had been planted on Billie just before 
   the raid. Billie came to trial with a black eve 
   she said Levy gave her before he left. "You 
   should see my back," she added. "And he even 
   took my silver-blue mink-18 grand worth of 
   coat. He said he was going to give it to his sister 
   to take care of for me. 1 got nothing riots, and 
   1 in scared. 
   "I turned all my life over to John. He took 
   all my money. I never had any money. We were 
   supped to get married. On January 22, John 
   canK back from Los Angeles. We had been ar
   ."While Levy was un. 
   guing about money. 
   Packing. the telephone rang. Immediately af
   1erwards, she said, he handed her a package and 
   told her to get rid of it. " I went into my room. 
   Then 
   John closed the door behind me. 
   John told me to 
   someone grabbed me. 
   My man 
   throw aomc trash away. I did it. 
   makes me wait on hint, not him on me. I never 
   did anything without John telling me. 
   The story of the San Francisco trial and 
   her acquittal is told by Billie in her book and 
   by 
   Jake Ehrlich, the famous West Coast law
   yer who defended her, in a paperback, Never 
   Plead Guilty. 
   In the late Forties, Billie had her own show 
   on Broadway, backed by Bob Sylvester and 
   other true believers; it flopped after three 
   weeks. She has had very successful tours of 
   1 950's when, 
   Europe, the last one in the 
   in a group shepherded by Leonard Feather, 
   she wowed them in Copenhagen. Some time 
   after the San Francisco trial she married 
   Louis McKay. She was also once married to 
   trumpet player Joe Guy. but this time it 
   showed signs of taking. 
   During the present decade she has steadily 
   recaptured her sureness of style and, along 
   with it, a mellowing and maturity. Happily, 
   however, her intonation has not lost its caus
   tic undertones and her voice can still be as 
   tight as Montgomery Clift's levis. In the 
   spring of 1957, contracts were signed for a 
   flm biography of her life. 
   Sardonic and sophisticated as her singing 
   style is, it has retained and made stronger 
   and deeper an affinity to such honky-tonk 
   styles as that of Alice Moore, whose "I'm 
   black an' evil an' I did not make myself ..." 
   sears the eardrums. No one since Ma Rainey 
   has sung the "My man"-type blues with such 
   sullen, sultry pathos. No one has given such 
   point and passion to popular song lyrics. 
   
Billie Holiday, born Eleanora Fagan and 
   dubbed Lady Day, was a product of the East 
   Baltimore slums, where a star cracked on her 
   cradle, leaving her star-born and star-crossed. 
   Some years ago the Lady of the White Gar
   denias, in a Cadillac whose whiteness 
   matched the white steps of Baltimore she'd 
   scrubbed as a kid, drove slowly through the 
   old neighborhood. Even in this she appeared 
   to pay homage with the clumsiness and bel
   ligerence of the fear-ridden, the guilt-gotten. 
   But, if so, this was a deeper guilt than the 
   unreasonable but conventional reaction that 
   her past might have instilled in her-of the 
   deep and dark places of the mind, having 
   only a tangential relationship to all manner of 
   hustling, a hurt and a haunt that could be ex
   orcised only by a song. 
   But we're all of us love hunters, some stalk
   ing the prey, some wooing it, some fnding it 
   by giving it, others folding before it like night 
   fowers in sunlight, resistless in the coils of 
   an indiscriminate and emotional    hunger. Insight 
   is not enough. Not unless it becomes part of 
   one, as in some precious moments when there is 
   no longer the chasm between what    one 
   knows, deep within one's self, and what one 
   believes and is, outwardly. Lady comes closest to 
   this fusion of knowing and    feeling when she 
   says: "I've been told that nobody sings the 
   word `hunger' like I do. Or the word 'love.' 
   "Maybe I remember what those words are 
   all about. Maybe I'm proud enough to want 
   to remember Baltimore and Welfare Island, 
   the Catholic Institution and the Jeferson 
   Market Court. the sherif in front of our place 
   in Harlem and the towns where I got my 
   lumps and scars, Philly and Alderson, Holly
   wood and San Francisco --every damn bit 
   of it. You've got to have something to cat 
   and a little love in your life before you can 
   hold still for any damn body's sermon." 
   -1957